Metta Meditation Reflection - Feb 12 14

Link to meditation, guided by Ajahn Brahmali.

I came to it with some agitated thoughts, thought not deep agitation. I was able to relax my body so that I was able to let go of it sometimes during the meditation, and my thoughts did not drift too much from the metta, yet I did not feel great loving kindness, I could connect when I thought of individuals more, and had some sense of goodness in myself from the past and in the present, though my letting go of wanting still felt like it was conflicting with wishing things for myself and others. Still, I want to accomplish some practical good and metta is toward that purpose.

'Detachment' Meditation Reflection - Jan 25 14

Link to meditation, guided by Ajahn Brahmali.

Came with no intrusive concerns, again I felt that I am not quite letting go of my body, and it did crop up that I felt some disparity between right and left sides, where my lower left side again felt a bit blocked and in my head there seemed to be a lack of unity, this being a physical sensation - a fullness in my left side. But whether that deflected my meditation much I cannot be sure, I think perhaps it just is not going that deep. The thing that seems to help me always is to turn my attention outward, though this does mean I am initially actively aware, but then it becomes more passive. I do not know whether to maintain this or let go of the outward attention. My guess here is that I will let go of it when I am in a deeper and more relaxed state, and that it will not be a decision, but a path.

'Detachment' Meditation Reflection - Jan 24 14

Link to meditation, guided by Ajahn Brahmali.

Came with less physical concern, was able to be quite comfortable, but I have not yet let go of the body for long. My mind wandered in thought about various current preoccupations, mostly to do with money, health and relationships but they were gentle thoughts that did not pull me into anxieties. I had not really felt present in the now, but there were times in the meditation that I focussed on colors I was seeing - purple mainly - and my thoughts stilled, then.