'Letting Go' Meditation Reflection - Apr 18 14

Link to meditation, guided by Ajahn Brahm

Does this really help, to list my reflections? Maybe it helps me, but that wasn't supposed to be the point. How can my detailing my meditation practice help you?

I hoped there may be some common ground, a place where what i experienced connected with yours, but it would be the blind leading the blind in some ways. Lots of Monkeys hoping to write Shakespeare. Still, Here we are.

I came to the meditation quire relaxed, and let go of the body somewhat, my thoughts drifted around low level concerns and ideas, family things, complaints, wanting work, wanting attention. then at some point my body started it's twisting again, it has been happening fairly consistently recently, my head twists far to the right, stretching out the left side neck muscles quite far, it feels comfortable whilst it's happening, then afterward my neck feels a bit achy.

Ajahn had said its almost always excellent where the body contorts itself as long as we are not compelling it consciously, so i go with it. Hopefully it will help my upper back pain.

How does that help you? Well, maybe I could say, "I find my body contorting itself, I had heard guidance that should it do so, it is usually excellent for you, the body working it's own kinks out, so if you find that happening to you, let it continue, I'm passing on what I heard."

How does my basically relating the ongoing skimming the surface of meditation help anyone? Well, maybe I can say "Once again I am only skimming ht surface of meditation, yet I know from the guidance I follow that this is the most common lay issue with meditation, and it is only the practice that will let any deeper states come. Practice combined with mindfulness, with reflection and guidance, these things can further the benefits and journey into mediation, so as I persist, come along with me and lets see how we do, let me know if you have any breakthrough."

'Lotus' Meditation Reflection - Feb 09 14

Link to meditation, guided by Ajahn Brahm.

Came fairly peacefully, with minor physical hindrances, through the meditation I again forgot about the lotus and drifted into resolving things that I cannot resolve, such as the pain in my side, though I was letting it be somewhat, and the future, which I was seeing and thinking about but not obsessively, I realize that what I see is projection and not to be worried over. Still, I did drift there, giving my ego its wanting fulfillment, where I help great numbers of people to be happier, trying at least to include myself now. This is such a deep, long desire that to let go of it would be a great burden removed. It can be, but only by doing, I believe, more of a zen idea, perhaps, where work removes desire. Perhaps I will find the way by 'not doing'?

The current thoughts were of letting homeless people know they are worth as much if not more than those wrapped up in material gain and self aggrandizement, somehow this again made it seem a criticism of the very charities that offer support, since those charities are predicated on the homeless attaining status, when status is the burden that devalues them. They are free: if they would be fed, they have a life desired by some of the holiest men in the world, the secret is to be happy with it and to exist outside of the judgement greed lays on you, you are not needy if you accept and do not need, you only need if you want more than you have.