Waves of breath upon the shore

If, in meditation, you have imagined your breath as waves upon a shore, become the ocean. The swash, the wave breaking on the shore, is now your out breath, the backwash and undertow your in breath. The oscillation is continuous, smooth.

What is your motivation to do good? Meditation reflection – July 25 2015

I am reminded today in metta meditation (wherein I glimpsed the simple wish for happiness, though did not kindle it for long, being unfocused) that compassion ought not become pity and equanimity not ambivalence, both of which I am guilty of harboring from seemingly benevolent desire. It is currently in focus for the project I work on aimed at offering a platform for the homeless population of the world to feel and (re)build their own value, equitable to all others, used for their individual and communal good. Within this is a great uncertainty as to purity of motive, so I seek to maintain my openness about it, I strive to do good, not to patronize for insincere motives or seek credit for selfish reasons, nor pursue selfish goals unwittingly. And if I fail in this I hope to create something that may be given freely, taken from me (as it is designed to be) and used by those who have salvation in mind.

All my children are born to be adopted.

Ego clinging, loosening the grip

I have been tense in my upper back, my neck, as if there is compression which would enjoy release, it has seen my body contort itself during the recent meditations and interrupt stillnes.

Today I found toward the end of the meditation I thought a current hindrance is that I am still doing meditation for personal glory: that it may lead me to a place where I am good to others which will reflect well on me.

Hiwever, I feel also that this is not quite true, as if I am good to others that will be enough for me, but my ego clings on, wanting praise, wanting reward. It is lessening, but there.

There are enough glimpses in meditation of peace to draw me on, to the love of all life, where I share stillness and insight.